I woke up and an entire section of my mind previously unfamiliar to me had been activated. Possibilities and impressions that once lived in my imagination surged and dramatically ate away at pragmatic constraints, annihilating what was assumed as impossible.
Being scared doesn’t have to inhibit me. Instead, acknowledging my fear and deciding to use it, and then destroy it, is empowering. Jumping in head-first forces me to come up with a solution. It doesn’t have to be the best solution, but it will be at least a stepping-stone.
Auditioning, they say, is the actor’s real job. Performing is the grand prize, it’s what you get to do when you’re lucky, it’s the crème de la crème, and it may not happen often.
The pride I feel for ‘Miles Ahead’ is immeasurable. It’s big and broad. It reaches all parts of me. My director pushed me, leaned on me, challenged me, relied on me to be better. He raised my game as a producer. But as a champion and a conqueror of my fear and anxiety? That was all me.